Ugly Truths about Just Pretending

I’m a moderate climber, I’m not bad-ass.  I can climb close to as well as any recreational climber, man or woman, but I’ve mostly approached this sport as entertainment.  Moderate is challenging for me physically and mentally. I don’t think I can compare to the people I see the gym Read More …

Growing Up Past the Bolt

That’s my husband lead sport climbing.  I’m below him belaying.  As he climbs, he pulls the rope up with him and secures it with a quick draw in pre-set bolts in the wall.  As he climbs past a bolt, he enters “scary fall zone”.  If he falls once he is beyond a Read More …

This Year, I Own Mother’s Day

This year, I own Mother’s Day. It used to be about others; my mother, my kids, the mothers I know and many birthdays.  I let the day pass without a thought but a card, a few texts from friends and some flowers for my mother.  It was an afterthought; “Oh Read More …

A Legacy… to me

There are people that are always giving. The kind of person who stops what they are doing and very gently focuses all their attention on you, because, you are there, and obviously important.  That kind of full service attention is special and rare. It is expressively loving.  These people are always Read More …

How to Make Magic: A Primer in 6 Steps (Part 3 of 3)

Don’t worry, I did not forget about Magic.  Never. I’ve said it before, magic takes time, patience, investment and belief.  I’ve been working on all these things myself. I hope you have to. If you did forget, here are posts 1 and 2.  They are critical prerequisites to reading Part 3. Part Read More …

A Beautiful Mind

I dislike the word “disabled” and the word “disorder” is just as bad.  These words focus on the many ways someone is not <some “normal” trait> which can be fairly translated as not mediocre. Words like “disabled” and “disorder” reveal weepingly dysfunctional thinking. Sadly, they are hurtful. Yet they are institutional terms we pretend are Read More …

Resistence

Steven Pressfield’s book “The War or Art” has been on my to read list for a few months.  Reviews are powerful and even transformational. You know those days when you just can’t pick up a paintbrush?  Can’t focus?  Wonder why the hell you choose such a difficult career path?  And Read More …

Draw a Blank

Truth: An artist comprehends no separation between art and life. But recently I learned that I subconsciously regard aspects of my art as separate. I have told myself this:  Writing is not painting.  But writing is most definitely art. In this way… When I decided to take the leap of faith and become a painter, I let Read More …

A Place for Peace of Mind

Yesterday, the Seattle Schools District teachers walked out (as they should) to demand the money that was voted to be allocated to K-12 schools and has yet to appear.  Please don’t get me started on this.  I worked at a community college for long enough to understand the politics of this Read More …

A Dead Plant is a Reminder

Today, I found my almost-6-year-old son on this ledge worriedly kneeling over a plant.  He turned to me and pointed at it. “What happened?” He asked. “It’s dead. Daddy killed it.”  I said.   I’m sorry Dad. It was a flippant response.  Dad  has an amazing green thumb. This spot has been Read More …